the beautiful wet spring, coupled with warm days, and cool days has produced some beautiful hay,  I received my first load the end of June, what a relief,  I had about 2 weeks worth of hay left, the hay is lovely, but sadly this year the bales are light. Like one horse per bale light.  its going to cost me this winter.  Business is slow, partially because I haven’t gotten my self in gear, its hard, this year, just being on my own. I can’t seem to work up the energy to clean up my barn, clean up my yard, smarten up my horses.  I haven’t even really competed because I don’t have the energy.  Whining, I guess, I just seem to be stuck.  I can’t seem to pull myself together, if I am not teaching riding, I am not sure what I would like to do, I feel as if I have lost my passion, two of my students, my most consistent students are in trouble with their parents, and can’t come ride this week, which will set me back, 80 dollars, another of my students is on vacation, another 40, so its only tuesday and I am down 120.00 this week. yay.  It was a slow spring, with all the rain, and now this, I lost one student, because she is a full time worker, with a family, who could only ride on Saturday’s, but felt obligated to help her father run his business on the weekends.. Last year I lost 4 students in a month,  it sucked the wind out of me. Sigh.  I always thought that if you loved what you did, the rest would come.  Its not really working for me right now, I guess I could always look for and find a job, but its hard to work for someone when you’ve been used to working for yourself.