First, I need to vent again about my family.  I was offered an interesting job,  its a job that I am pretty sure I could do well at.  The biggest hitch, is my current life style, verses the hours that the job would entail.  My horses take up a number of daily hours, 3, if I am efficient, and nothing needs repairing, or cleaning, or catching, or medical treatment.  I fit the hours in, they are my day.  As a stay at home mom type, I have done various part time jobs over the years, but like many horse people, often look for extra work to supplement the costs of my horses.  I really wanted to maybe think about taking this job, so I approached my family.  Not one of them was supportive.  Mostly because when I asked them for help, they were pretty much, NO, not me!!  Sadly NO ONE , said, wow, thats great, how can I help you achieve that?? Every single one of them said, well, what about the house, what about me, what about …… My changing my life was an inconvenience for them.   It makes me sad, that no one in my immediate family was interested in helping me. It also makes me a little angry,  I know that as a mother, you make sacrifices,  but there isn’t anyone home really anymore, my husband only speaks to me when he is listing chores for me to do, my daughter when she needs money, and my oldest when he feels the need to tell me what bad children the other two are.  My youngest said, do what you want, but don’t ask me to do the horses because the answer is no. I feel let down, and hurt, and inconsequential.  I know, that when ever any one of them has wanted to try something, I have done what I could to help them achieve, I have provided support, funds, travel, guidance,  meals, done extra work, set aside something I wanted to do, for them, to do what they want to do.  Now, I wonder, is it worth paying someone to do for me what my family won’t.  I feel like if I don’t try this, the chance will pass and I will always wonder.

Ok, that’s out of the way.  Sunday, was my first dressage show of the season on Jack. We really didn’t do very well, he was funky in his gaits, and stiff over his back, and I think the judge just didn’t care for him, I think.  What was interesting, was the spectators,  I had several people approach me after each of my tests to talk to me, and to pat him, they said how wonderfully he tried, how beautiful he looked, how well we worked together. After my first test, total strangers clapped,  after my second, all the people that had watched his first test cheered after his second.  What a special feeling, I did have one friend there with her children, for the second test, and they were so supportive, but it was the cheers, and clapping from the other side of the ring that caught my attention. Our scores were low for that judge, she seemed to be scoring pretty high mostly. But, sunnyside, is we got two qualifying scores for our club medal.  On to next weekend, and off to hay.  k